Wednesday, December 21, 2005 feeling strange. msn's pple seems to have those Fark off on their nicks. No one to tok to. Emoooo. Haahaa. been months since i blog. so mani things happened. pple came and went. finally got my laptop back after a month of hibernation in the hands of the repairer. haa. i muz say. my dota skills certainly deproved alot. KNN. haaa. farming liek shit now. =(. but that's not the saddest thing but one of the more saddening thing. haha. going thru a kinda recession in my life. where everything seems so bored and still and life juz sucks to me. argh. i hate to think. becoz when i tink, i tink alot. den i will become emo, low, sianx, etc etc. haa.. i see how pple lead their life and i analyse mine. seems to be going the opposite way from the commoners. i wanna be extraordinary, but not in this way. i wan to feel special, but in a postive manner. i m frankly say i m nt happy. i wanna feel appreciated, bliss and all the positive things that i can tink of but i m currently not. Is it the "take it for granted" fever back? i dunno. i wish i was happier. juz watched mean gals on HBO. nice and meaningful. played guitar and slack ard. 2am and still wide awake. =1 . christmas is cuming. time for celebration. Looking for pple to celebrate together. dont wan to feel alone during this festive season. =_( haaa.. sianx. time for dotaaaaa.
